last night's plans with the fisherman fell through, thanks to some last-minute cargo they had to pick up. i was disappointed, but it's understandable.
i really want to see him tonight, as it's pretty sure he's leaving tomorrow. the only thing that would keep them here any longer would be something going wrong with the boat, and even if that happened i wouldn't get to see him because he'd be too busy fixing it. at the same time, my sister, brother-in-law and niece are all here right now, and it feels shitty to leave them to go out. they don't care, but i feel like an ass.
i feel just really conflicted right now. i like him, i want to spend some more time with him before he goes, but i know i don't know him that well (how well could you know anyone after two weeks?) and that part of my brain that goes to worst-case-scenario as default is having a field day with all of this. making myself relax and just enjoy the time left is the challenge, let's hope i'm up to it.
Saturday, May 12, 2007
this is why i don't date
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I hate the phone, too -- all phones, and ESPECIALLY when you are waiting for the damned thing to ring. That's such an awful, powerless feeling.
Sounds like Mr. Fisherman has made quite a "catch" -- maybe your heart. Yes, things like that can be apparent within two weeks. Even less.
How long will he be gone? (Probably a while?) Well, at least he's not going to Iraq. Do fishing boats have email (or text messaging) capability these days?
I ache for you, because him going away is just really sad.
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