see?

i should always, always, always keep my piehole shut. i should know that by now!

last night, the new guy and i were out and having a grand time, when i find out that the last girlfriend he had he was with for four years.

four years. is. a. long. time.

the other night he tried to tell me that they'd been broken up for "a while" but i called him out on that, because he's still got photos of her on his fridge, and he 'fessed up to them being officially over for about a month and a half. kids, we all know that i am not a newbie and am prone to saying exactly what i think. i woke him up early this morning, rolled him over and said "i refuse to be your rebound. i'm not saying we have to be all serious and shit, but i am no one's fling." later i explained that i have a good time when i'm with him, i like spending time with him, but the moment i feel like he's using me to get over something (someone) or treating me like a process and not a person, then i'm out.

it might seem like i got all crazy on him, and perhaps i did a bit, but omitting that you were in a serious relationship with a woman for over four years and you have, in fact, recently broken up seems fishy to me. like i told him, i am not in the mood to be anyone's relationship palate cleanser. i don't want to be his housewife or baby-maker either, so we're going to have to work out some middle ground. personally, i'd like to take a small break from seeing him for a few days, but i already invited him out tonight and can't seem to shake him. what i'm going to do is relax, enjoy the time i get to spend with him, enjoy his friends and their crazy art projects, and keep my eyes open. the end.

hi, my name is amanda and my middle name is "neurotic."