the guilt is going to kill me (or not)

on thursday my boss told everyone we were having a store meeting this sunday. i asked for this sunday off last month. i'm going to see a show, and i knew there was some arts and crafts thing going on in town that my roommate wanted to go to as well. i didn't say anything at the time because i didn't know exactly what was going on, and didn't want to jump the gun. today when i told him that i had asked for sunday off weeks ago, and now knew my roommate's plan and really wanted to go do that, he sort of guilt tripped me. "well, if that's what you have to do..."

at the same time i'm feeling guilty, i'm thinking about how every single fucking store meeting they've called in the last month has been scheduled on my day off. i think that's sort of unfair, and not only that, i think telling everyone they have to attend a meeting and giving them two days notice is bullshit.

skipping the meeting might not help my chances with the new job thing, but i kind of don't care. i have a life, albeit a small one, and my days off are mine. i don't get many of them, and when i need a day, i ask way in advance for it so i think it's reasonable that they respect that.

at this point the worst thing that can happen is that i get fired. honestly, though, would that really be so bad? would i lose my health insurance? um, no, because i don't have that. would i lose my sick time/vacation time? oh wait, i don't have that either. would i lose my cushy schedule? oh no, i don't actually have that either. finding a new job that would last a few months would be sucky, to be sure, but keeping this job for the next few months is also going to be sucky, so whatever. i vascillate between wanting to rage against the machine and taking a nap. it seems pointless to be upset about this because i know it's a temporary situation but the principle of the matter annoys me.