lockup. that felt pretty awesome as well.
yesterday i also did kind of a jerky thing. i called out from working with my co-worker's autistic daughter. i like the work i do with her, and i think the play therapy is doing wonders for her, but i admit to feeling a little burnt out. so far, i'm the only volunteer working with her. they were supposed to get more lined up, but it's been over three months and i don't see anyone new stepping in to help out any time soon. yesterday was also just a really nice day out; probably one of the last nice days we'll have for a while. the girlchild was selling her grandpa's dahlias out front (she's got a flower stand!), the sun was shining, D had the morning off work and there was a music festival going on in the park across the way. i just really wanted to stay home with my people and do nothing. the girlchild and i sat out front with the flowers, listening to the music and working with watercolors; D came out and joined us for a while to soak up some sun, and the boychik was in and out all day with his friends in a goofy, happy mood. i just couldn't, and didn't want to, leave them. i spend a lot of time working with my co-worker's daughter, planning out new games, working on new ways to get her to interact, spending time with her and her sisters, one-on-one. i also give up a lot of my free time, and the ability to go anywhere on the weekends, because i have to work around that schedule. i'm torn, because i think what i'm doing is helping, and i honestly like and care about this family, but i also want more time with my people. i don't like feeling like i'm the only one working on this as well. if there were other volunteers to pick up some of the slack, i would feel a lot better. i know i just need to sit down and tell them how i feel, and maybe take some time off, or make it so i only use one of my days off for this. i don't know. taking the day off yesterday to play hooky with the kids and D was probably a jackass thing to do, but it felt really good. not all weekends are as glorious, and i'm glad i spent it with the kids.